my only hope

December 22nd, 2006

this is for you; the one who got me through. i could never pay your kindness the way you paid for my sins. so here’s a song for you, to let the whole world know that i am nothing without you!

switchfoot version ha! :p

There’s a song that’s inside of my soul
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now, You’re my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

I give You my defeat
I’m giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs…I’m giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now, You’re my only hope

nothing left to say but goodnight

December 11th, 2006

"it’s something unpredictable but in the end is right. i hope you had the time of your life" - greenday

i wish i could find a word to describe how much i miss you. a lot of emotions wish to be emancipated from my soul yet i don’t know how to set them free without you here beside me. there’s an ache in my heart where you used to mend. it’s usually you who takes my mind away from things i shouldn’t worry about. you take me to places i’ve never been before. places where the dinosaurs roam, where buildings are too tall for one to imagine and where dreams have endless possibilities. if there’s one thing i should do right now, it is to be happy for you and maybe even envy you. but i couldn’t help missing you every minute. i miss your laughter, your voice. i miss the way you sang our songs, i miss your stares and your cheeks. most of all i miss your ears. i can still remember how you loved that lebron james commercial and how you imitated the moves of tim duncan or any nba star for that matter. how you played generals and nba live. how you enjoyed watching wwe. and i remember a million other things about you. yet all i have are these memories of you. nothing more. nothing less. i’ll hold on to them until one day i’ll wake up and have you beside me again. but until that day comes, there’s nothing left to say but goodnight.